Working for a living Saturday, August 13, 2005 6:29 AM
I’ve put down my grammar books and returned to software manual working to reconnect to my old passion. But, it is no longer enough; I want to connect with others now. I am fortunate to have the support of many friends and family but still find myself seeking. I am unable to conceal and the need, it is written all over my face yet refuge in the arms of another desperate soul is not what I want. It is during these times of longing that I go through the most personal growth. And there is much to be done.
My friend Larry has directed me to a fine book Dawkins “the Selfish Gene” The book explains the scientific details of evolution that I have been seeking in my latest interest in Darwin. I rationalize this distraction because it parallels writing of software.
I have keep this site running for years now and have gained the knowledge that only experience can teach. I see the improvements that need to be made and look forward to the time when I can dedicate the hours to accomplish it. But personal development drives me also and one personal accomplishment is I find I am now asking for what I want. I’m not always getting it but that is not in my control.
Words are more difficult to come by now that I am not regularly reading non-fiction but reconnecting to my programmers head. But I need to create content to sculpt the site around. This will be submitted to my web log—a stream of thoughts. The other major component here is the gallery—a hierarchical collection of images and text. Every new contribution should snuggly fit within past contributions. Many new postings now are rewording of old thoughts. I need to improve the organization. I envision a day when new thoughts will be accomplished with a new association or refinement.