What I want to talk about now has to do with friendship. Determining what you mean to others and what others mean to you. People can have the best intentions when they make a vow or commitment but circumstances change and what was said can always be reinterpreted. I have been deceived by words.

Most of my life I have not been a good friend. I was on a fabulous ride through life and felt there was room for more then one. But when it came to thinking about their needs, I was clueless. I am trying to be better now. Life has a way of humbling you and making you aware of the importance of family and friends.

Now I work at it. I place myself in the shoes of those in my life and try to make it better for them. I am not there yet for I am still clinging to my own dreams. For instance, this site is my golden calf. Dance the dance, walk the walk and the whole world will notice. I was hoping to create a dialog here and have others adopt this framework as theirs. But it is not working out that way.

The whole spectrum is available here. I can work on some cleaver technology or reach out and have my voice heard and listen to your response.

This transition from self absorbed to sharing person is making me aware of how I have lived. I have managed my own needs and did not ask much from those in my life. With isolation, I craved the attention of other and would accept friendships no matter how deceitful. As long as they did all the work I would accept them.

To improve life I need to do the following. To reach out and ask for what I need, to care for friends and help them reach their goals and to Share when it hurts. Life is a learning process and every day something new shows me how long the journey is to understanding.